I

I am never this stoic

I used to cry a river; at the slightest sadness

I used to get so emotional at almost everything

I used to not know what I want

But now I do



I never thought ill of you

And now, I have

I never screamed and shouted at myself for this

And now, I have



You used to be my best friend

I couldn't see you that way, anymore

I gave up on you

On everything we have built from scratch

Now, I just have to find someone else to build it with



I saw myself with you forever,

Now I don't